today

today started out very well. I did not go to school today; however, I woke with every intention to go to school. I had even started walking. Then a friend stopped me and asked me if I wanted to hang out with her instead of school. I only had a half day today, and most of my morning classes are study halls. Therefore, I found it pointless to go anyways. Today was great. I did a lot of driving today, which I love, it makes me feel in control.
When I came home from such a great day, my parents completely ruin it. they start screaming about how they know I'm doing hard drugs and shit. This is quite far from the truth. This all came about just because they found a few beer cans?! I asked my father about the shit he does and how he can yell at me for fucking up but he can whenever. I am currently looking for a job because I know that I need to get out of my parent's house. It is only harming me. Miranda told me about an apartment in town that is not that expensive. I am gonna try to find some form of a job. I know that I need to do this for myself. I cut today. I have been trying to give that up today, but struggles and personal battles caused this.